I cannot believe it's now the year 2011... last night as my husband and I were watching the Gin Blossoms and Rick Springfield rock Times Square before the big ball dropped, we were asking each other, "Can you believe its 2011??? Can you believe we've been married twenty years???"
Back when we were dating... like, twenty-one or so years ago (in a time our daughters call the "olden days")... the year 2000 seemed far in the future, and now we are eleven years beyond even that. In looking back, however, I would say while the time passed quickly and there were plenty of obstacles and heartaches and lots of hard work along the way, it was time well spent. Given the fact that one cannot go back and change anything, its probably a good perspective to have. Regrets are worthless, and dwelling on them a waste of precious time.
And so, I choose to live in this moment and to look ahead.
At this very moment in my home, we've just finished up a board game. Now my older daughter is upstairs practicing tae kwon do with her dad, while the younger is feeding our dogs (after compassionately encouraging the elderly, arthritic one down the stairs). Nothing particularly special or noteworthy about the moment, outside the fact that everyone is home. Everyone is safe, and healthy, and content. There is no drama, no crises, no pressing deadlines or weighty concerns. That, in and of itself, fills me with a deep sense of gratitude. My heart overflows with it, and to be honest, my eyes overflow a little as well. I don't think one could know that same depth of gratitude without first experiencing the obstacles and heartache and losses... and so I am grateful for those as well. Wouldn't want to experience them again, but am far richer because of them.
Now, as we begin a new year, I look to the future with gratitude for the opportunities and blessings to come, as well as great excitement and expectation. 2010 blessed me abundantly with some wonderful new mentors and friends, among them Heather O'Sullivan Canney and Amy Lundberg. They both have opened up great big new worlds for me, have set the bar really high, and I have a whole lot of work to do as a result... both inside (working on me) and out (growing my business). The thing is, I can't wait! They are both phenomenally gifted women and I am so grateful to have the chance to work with each of them.
The older I get, it seems the less I know, but the more I love to learn and grow. Now that my daughters are both in school and my days a bit more my own, it feels like a great gift to have the opportunity to focus more on my self-care, personal growth and business while they are in school, while still being an attentive and present mother to them when they are at home. 2011 will be a wonderful year, and I look forward to sharing it with you here in my Frostfire Journal.
Thank you so much for making the time to read about my thoughts and adventures here in this little blog... I appreciate it, very much, and hope you have a truly healthy, happy, prosperous and joyful 2011. Happy New Year!